When I lay down sometimes the tears just flow themselves, just because I'm exhausted or frustrated. As the years go on and on of my marriage it makes me more anxious to realise that my life is still pretty much the same, nothing is falling into place as I keep dreaming it will. Maybe one day I'll be able to sit back and laugh about all of this but right now I just can't see that light at the end of the tunnel.
How about you? When and why was the last time you cried?
I am sure that there will be a time when you'll laugh about those feelings and insecurities! You're a bright individual with a lot of talents and you maybe don't actually notice, but even your blog shows all those little steps you take and how you change...
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's silly, but the last time I cried was during episode 1 of the last season of Newsradio that we watched last week... It is supposed to be funny and all, but during the break between seasons one of the actors (Phil Hartman ~ probably the most brilliant guy ever) was killed and the cast was kinda saying goodbye to his character and it was just so heartbreaking how everyone was trying to carry on with the funny show and just couldn't stop crying...
Thank Tanuki it means a lot :). I know what you mean about crying at TV shows... it never used to bother me but sometimes I do, also during reading a book sometimes which isn't a good thing but I can't help it. I've turned into such a softy :P
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